Are You Sure God?

I have it all together…
Or do I?
I have one question for you.

What happens when you have put your all into something?
Your:
Time – Money – Heart – Soul

And God says NO….
Have you spent the majority of your life focusing on a specific aspiration without checking in with God first?

We live in a society that tells us to chase OUR dreams, keyword OUR.

In reality, we need to chase God. We have heard it said many times; Did we listen?

As believers, the Word of God tells us to seek HIM first and HIS righteousness and the other things will be added unto us. I wonder if we see it as “Seek Him first and it will be added to us” the “it” being whatever it is WE want. Do we skip over the whole righteousness part to, “Just give me what I want God.”

We rarely seek God. We long to fulfill our own selfish desires and then invite God to come along and get with our program. Oh and wait… When He doesn’t, we blame Him for things not working out the way we had anticipated.

These last few years I had my hands in so many different things, my head could not stop spinning. I was burning out fast with no end in sight.

Thankfully, about five months ago, I had a wakeup call in my prayer time.

I realized that I had stopped waiting on God and instead was doing things I enjoyed that SEEMED good. I think we all know, all good things are not necessarily God things. I was going the way that seemed right to man but in the end leads to destruction (Proverbs 14:12). Maybe in my case not necessarily destruction but definitely fatigue and time wasted.

God had given me something and I took it and began to nurture it. It was work, but it was fulfilling, noncrazy zany work. However, I began to listen to the noise around me and eventually the noise (advice, business mentors etc.), became louder than God’s voice. The vision became blurry, and I took different paths that looked more like what the world says I should be serving up and less like how it looks to trust God. I allowed myself to lean onto my own understanding and the knowledge of others.

After over three years of the crazies… God brought me to myself, as the old folks would say, or better yet to my knees.

“Sooooo God” I asked, “Am I in your will in these areas? Yes, these as in multiple – I began to pray about each area one by one. Not to my surprise… even after all my energy, time, money and effort, there were some things God allowed but did not bless. I would be loony to continue on without His direction and covering.

The blessing is I learned a lot, I met some amazing people, and unfortunately one shiesty person, that I will call a lesson learned. OUCH… but it took all that, to get here. Where I sit writing this today. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t just go along without a fight. You know the easy way. I questioned, “Are you sure God?” As if God is unsure of anything. A few kicks and some muffled screams later, to my surprise, the pivot thus far has been a weight lifted from me.

The whining has ended. The grief is gone. No regrets, instead, lessons learned. That drew me back to Him.

Refocusing, pivoting and starting some things completely from scratch have been scary and exciting with a shower of relief.

Not that the changes aren’t work, but the work is different. I feel the joy of creating again. God’s ways are always better than our own.

Again, it ain’t been easy, but it’s definitely been worth it.

I’m smiling as I type thinking about the goodness of God!

This being said – I ask you… Is there any area of your life that God is calling you to pivot?

If there is, are you willing?